Wednesday, January 21, 2009
People seldom ask me what is pride,
Cause they already knew the answer.
To me, pride is nothing.
Dun see why people get so crazy over this.
Instead of wasting time on this thing,
I did rather go practice my trombone playing, even though i used a different and harder style of tonguing, its difficult to change now.
With syf now, after syf i will have to slowly adapt to the better and easier style.
Reading people's blogs, i realised there are many things happening around me.
Good things, bad things.
Now, pride is one thing, fate is another.
But to me both are equally nothing.
Well, maybe fate has a higher rank.
It could be fate that i was chosen into band, even though it was my second choice.
It could be fate that i only talked more to the band during my leader days.
It could be fate that Elisa actually stayed on the section. (She will make a great leader, she just need to learn)
It could be fate that I exploded and abandoned my job for a long time. (took me a while to get back to my senses)
Everything could be fate, even the silver for syf.
But
I think all these consequences were caused by the actions we do everyday.
Even if i werent chosen into band, i would quit ncc air and transfer into it anyway.
Talking more to the band? i made a right choice in communicating more, this way we have a stronger bond.
Elisa will be a brilliant person, it will take a while before she learns everything, i am willing to take a risk that she will be able to command respect in the band.
I cracked, ok? but i came back to my senses, teachers and seniors and juniors actually are there, im the bad egg that time. Self consious all that. But i came back.
These are all fate?
Dun make me laugh.
To make choices means u had chosen ur fate.
Good or bad choices determine your future.
I decide my. Lets hope the others will. XD
10:14 PM
