My hands feel weak... pathetic... I happened to be interested in conducting for a while now... but some things or situations had happened... making me drop conducting... my arms still feel the surge of music through it... but... without the hand movement onli... my hands refused to move with the music anymore... i have no idea why... everytime i picked up a pen... i would pretend it is a baton... now? the pen i held in my hands had no effect... it appears heaven is against me from conducting... my hands are stripped from the ability to go with the flow now... i cant conduct... neither can i use the baton... i did something wrong today which made me regret... i took her baton, hoping there would be some feeling in my hands... but not onli was it a failure... i gt xin yu mad too... my hands are not fated to conduct... i see now...
The flame flickers slowly... disappearing without a trace...
10:34 PM
Apparently, i have never told anyone about my past band life before. Now im a bit jealous of everyone who have a senior... in my primary school band, there was not a single trombone senior. About 7 of the newly recruited, including me were appointed there... Soon... 1 by 1... they quitted... leaving me alone... Fond memories? i doubt it... more like bitter memories... Never in my life have i a trombone senior... not including teachers... or alumnis... in the end... that year there was only 5 primary 6 members... Pathetic... isnt it? i came to beatty band seeking a senior... i thought i found one in Lionel... but... soon i learnt the truth... here again... i am the only one senior in the trombone section... No one else... again... the juniors apparently have no idea how fortunate they are... not like others who never had a senior in their life... Pathetic... thats the only thing i can say... i seriously wont tolerate other names... this goes out to elisa and eileen... my name is guan chin onli... unless u have another name i shall call u by... regardless... my section appears to be falling apart... i guess i will have to sort it... myself... again...
When you have something...you never know its value until it is lost...
10:19 PM
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24th December 1993 (forget it)
Lousy at studies (I think...)
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